::At War::

"For what I am doing, I do not understand. For what I will to do, that I do not practice; but what I hate, that I do. If, then, I do what I will not to do, I agree with the law that it is good. But now, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me. For I know that in me (that is, in my flesh) nothing good dwells; for to will is present with me, but how to perform what is good I do not find. For the good that I will to do, I do not do; but the evil I will not to do, that I practice. Now if I do what I will not to do, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells in me.

I find then a law, that evil is present with me, the one who wills to do good. For I delight in the law of God according to the inward man. But I see another law in my members, warring against the law of my mind, and bringing me into captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am! Who will deliver me from this body of death? I thank God—through Jesus Christ our Lord!

So then, with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin."

~Romans 7:15-25

"For though we walk in the flesh, we do not war according to the flesh. 4 For the weapons of our warfare are not carnal but mighty in God for pulling down strongholds, 5 casting down arguments and every high thing that exalts itself against the knowledge of God, bringing every thought into captivity to the obedience of Christ, "
2 Corinthians 10:3-5


"Another crash, another fall, another failure
Another choice I don't want to remember
Been here too many times
Every day's another fight
I'm at war with the person I could be
Give me a chance and I'll mess up a good thing
But this is where it ends
Yeah, this is where it ends"
Draw the Line ~ Disciple

an idea I had while listening to this song. lol and sorry for the mass of text, it's just that a chunk of that chapter fit with what I was looking for.

I often feel like I have a war, part of me feels like it's not worth to cry out when I'm upset or anxious, and there are some times where it is second nature to me to tell God my heart. He knows it already of course, but in telling Him I surrender it, and a burden is lifted. In holding it in, it often festers, and it becomes a greater problem and in turn effects everything else in my life. So really, it's the better choice just to let it go into His hands. But, realistically, my stubbornness and pride usually gets in the way of this.

All glory to God!

ps~ Totally forgot to drink my tea again while doing this.. oh well haha

process video ~ will post when finally uploaded